The second time around, still hurt a lot

I thought I had teach myself the act of not be wanted, as it turn out, I still need a lot work at the area.

Why, is the question I need to ask. Why is it whenever I had strong feeling toward that person, they also respond negatively to me.

Conclusion drawn here, I am not to be loved by people I loved, fair? Maybe. I accept everything and everything that comes, ha...ha... , if God say so, so be it then.

I will get used to be alone sooner or later, no worry there.