Life is a bitch to me.
Always the 'why' questions, I am tired if nothing else. What is my next step. I always had the next step, this time around I am lost with no direction at all.
Should I cried, again? more? What else can that do? Nothing at all, still sad and hurt after that.
I pause , all my passions, well, it is not important any more, does it matter? I lost and I loss, what is more important now is that I am on a tight schedule here, I need carry out my plan fast, before I couldn't do it .
Putting up a poker face in front of everyone is hard, but I must continue, so fake of me right, what can I do? I need to make everyone think I am fine when I am never going to be fine.
So stupid right? I still can't hate him even if I want to.
Update:
Cancel all my plans, it is so stupid to continue what I want to achieve while him had already move on and move out of the love we once both cherish so much. Imagine how naive of me and somewhat selfish of him. It is not meant to be, thus it shall end. I shall begin to live my life, on my term and on my own. Directions and goals? That is a discovery that I shall embark on.
Always the 'why' questions, I am tired if nothing else. What is my next step. I always had the next step, this time around I am lost with no direction at all.
Should I cried, again? more? What else can that do? Nothing at all, still sad and hurt after that.
I pause , all my passions, well, it is not important any more, does it matter? I lost and I loss, what is more important now is that I am on a tight schedule here, I need carry out my plan fast, before I couldn't do it .
Putting up a poker face in front of everyone is hard, but I must continue, so fake of me right, what can I do? I need to make everyone think I am fine when I am never going to be fine.
So stupid right? I still can't hate him even if I want to.
Update:
Cancel all my plans, it is so stupid to continue what I want to achieve while him had already move on and move out of the love we once both cherish so much. Imagine how naive of me and somewhat selfish of him. It is not meant to be, thus it shall end. I shall begin to live my life, on my term and on my own. Directions and goals? That is a discovery that I shall embark on.
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